ive finally decided ive had enough with my weight. i made the mistake of getting on the scale at the wrong time of the month. im now on a diet of sorts. i really wouldnt call it much of a diet. its basically just expanding what i eat and portion control. so now all you guys who actually read this, and i dont think anyone really does, im going to write about this, because this will be incredibly hard for me. any encouragement is appretiated when i stepped on the scale on sunday, to get my actual weight, i weighed in at 142.5 this is heavier than i have ever been, and its embarassing. so after talking to a few people, and crying all friday night, ive made my changes. my usual portions are now cut in half,i eat at least 1/3 pound raw veggies per day, and i watch my fiber and protien. i honestly feel like a horse.granted ive only been doing this since last friday, 4 days, im down 1.5 pounds. my goal is to loose between 10-15. im going to start walking my dog more, since running hurts me, and just doing small workouts throughout the day. like, while reading my friends entries, i did some arm exercizes. when i brought this up with brian, keep in mind that this was not the first time ive gotten upset, he finally got the point that i was genuinly upset and unhappy, and instead of getting upset like he usually does, hes going to help. he said he'll make me salads and healthier dinners. not that his cooking is unhealthy. so im sorry if this isnt an exciting entry for you guys, but this is something ive got to do. 142 pounds on a 5 foot girl isnt healthy. i really dont consider myself fat. i mean, geez, im a D cup, so thats where some of the weight went, but im unhappy when i look in the mirror. thanks for reading this far :)