so i havent updated in a while...like...going on two months. no one else does either. Brian and I broke up, for the last time, we wont be seeing any more of him. What happened was, I had to take a pregnancy test last thursday, be cause I was late and my mom had a dream that i was pregnant. so it comes back negative and all, so i send him a text since he was still asleep, saying congrats, youre not a daddy, but we're going to start using protection + my birth control. and i get a text back that says id better find myself a new boyfriend. im sorry. i wont jepordize my future, my health, for a little bit of sex. that is the single most self centered thing i have ever heard. I told him that i t was ok if he was going to be a daddy, but theres no way in hell im going to be the momma. not with him. ever. then i get a text the next day saying that he didnt know we were broken up and he wanted his key back. i told him a. when you tell a girl to find a new boyfriend, thats a good clue that its over (not that i would just say, OK! i can get pregnant. no) and b. he never gave me a key, i took his key one morning or afternoon whenever he was sleeping and made my own copy. my $ = my key. i threw it away. i will not come second place to a bar anymore. i will not be used as a piece of ass anymore. i will not put myself out there anymore. i will not bend over backwards for anyone anymore. i will be someone, and he will not. i will make it, and he'll still be putting produce out at kroger. this is a huge blow to ym already nonexsistent self esteem. ive lost all faith. love does not exsist, or things like this wouldnt happen to people. i wouldnt constantly get hurt. nice comments would be nice...im not down, persay, just afraid. more on that later.