lackadaisical. what the hell is that?? its a fun word tho!! I need...someone here to hold and comfort me. I find...my mind wandering alot. I want...Ian here, even tho he comes home tomorrow, he makes me happy when he's around. these last 2 weeks hacve kinda sucked. I have...an '88 ford mustang convertible. its blue w/a white top and damnit i drive a stick! its my baby, my pride and joy! I wish...I could be happy with who i am and loose all of my insecurities. I love...too easily I hate...being lonely, stupid people, people who move REALLY slow... I miss...my mom and my flat tummy lolz I fear...death, growing up, spiders, and people discovering im not the bitch they think i am...is that weird?? lol I feel...kinda alone... I hear...the fan next to me, struggling to drown out the tv behind me I smell...my left over pizza I think...i think too much about things i shouldnt worry about. I crave...chocolate, love, and romance I search...chocolate, love, and romance I wonder...when ill find someone who makes me happy and loves me for me, not who they want me to be. I regret...being a bitch at times, being too honest, EVERYTHING w/sean... ***When was the last time you:*** Smiled? sometimes while i was at work. Laughed? sometime during work Cried? last night b/c i was talking to an amazing friend of mine and they are just the icest person. i love him sooo much and he'll prolly never find out just how much! Bought something? today. i bought a bagel while i was at work. Danced? last night, in the car w/rach. yet AGAIN succeeding in embarassing her.lol its so fun and so easy Were sarcastic? um never. im never sarcarstic. Kissed someone? a lil over 2 weeks ago, the last time i saw ian... Talked to an ex? if sean counts im talking to him now. but i talked to kelly earlier tonight. Watched your favorite movie?idk i dont have a fav. movie Had a nightmare? i dont remember dreams **A Last time for Everything...** Last book you read: Well, i never finished the color purple...umm i read The Guardian after The Notebook...the book is sooo much btter than the movie...movies still good tho. Last movie you saw: The Notebook, last night w/rach Last movie you saw AT THE MOVIES: The Notebook Rented: o wow...i have no clue Last song you heard: "North Carolina" by Petey Pablo. Great song...*sings* who am i?? petey pab mutha fucka!!! yea!! lol ok... Last thing you had to drink: pepsi zero. its pretty good! Last time you showered: this morning Last thing you ate: pizza and bread sticks. gotta love papa johns yea thats all for now. boring day, boring life...ill ttyl!!