so my cat chrissy..aka christina marie when she got in trouble...passed away today. mom had to have her put down. we got worried when she wouldnt eat. she's a big girl and always runs to you when shes hungry. she went from 17 lbs (BIG girl...) to 9. she had some liver problem and she couldnt even hold down water. i found all this out at work tonight and seriously almost went into hysterics. i scared many people tonight. not many people have seen me cry. two of my friends really got worried, bc i never show emotion like that...i called michelle. i cant remember the last time i called michelle crying...o wait...yes i do... i think that i broke down so bad because i was looking for something to finally release all my frustrartions and sadness i guess. i think i released all those pent up feelings. i do that too much...bottle up my emotions...and chrissy dying just pushed me over the edge. that was really strange to type...chrissys dead. ill never hold her again. ::sigh:: im gonna try to get a picture of her up on here eventually. but yea..this emotional breakdown is made up of several parts...i think that not only me worrying about my mom taking chrissy being gone, thursdays an emotional anniversary for me, im not exactly mad at tony...more like frustrated...but definately not mad...he just doesnt think sometimes. he's a special kind of smart. i need to learn that people say REALLY dumb things. and most of the time they WILL hurt...but the person who says it doesnt mean it that way. people will also do selfish, insensitive things. im tired of always listening to other peoples problems, and then once i have a REALLY bad day, or just need to vent, some people seem to go running in the opposite direction... ugh...im done complaining now...thanks for listening "dear my friends in the time we've spent forever after beyond this when will our nightmare ever end? pull the trigger and the nightmare stops... pull the trigger and the nightmare stops... pull the trigger and the nightmare stops...forever you will learn"