So much for good days. Today sucked hard. Wow, I need to crawl into a little hole and die now. I'm so sick of everyone taking everything they have for granted. Jesus christ, we're in highschool! Why is everyone making everything out to be about sex and drugs? Yeah, wonder why I was pissed the other night? Hmmm... My meds are screwing me up severly. I'm having bipolar mood swings now and I really don't like it. I'm exhausted and I won't get a break. I need to shower and I'm not going to have time. I need to sleep, but I won't have time for that either. I got yelled at by teachers in one too many classes today and everyone seemed so snippy. I was about to burst out laughing in the library with Fluffy when Nicole asked if I had a boyfriend. That's only gonna make sense to us but I was feeling so cynical. Brenda is really upset. She cried in the library when I was there again sixth period today. I think I was making it worse. I felt like crap. I want things to be easier for her, not harder. I miss her and I can't fix it anymore. I love how it's just automatically that I'm pissed at someone. Wow, that's caring right there. I'm so sick of all the B.S. I'm really sorry that I take it a little more seriously when someone loves ME. Wow, I WISH someone loved me. You know what though? I'm not particularly "mad" at anyone. I'm just stressed about MY OWN LIFE (yeah, funny as that may sound because people apparently don't think I have one of those) so if you feel like you're going to ask me what's wrong and then take it personally, fuck off. Seriously, I don't need more drama right now. Thanks to anyone who actually cares enough to read this. This is one of those times where more then anything in the world I just want someone to hug me and not have to let go. I want to be beautiful to someone...