I fricken love her. She's beautiful to me when she calls me up at 2:00 AM crying because he's horrible to her and doesn't understand. I do. Why am I always the one to understand and be the "good friend" Why when I find out what love is does it have to be with someone I am better off without? Friend love or romantic love, it's all the same. She doesn't deserve to go through any of this anymore. For the first time in so long I heard gasping sobs and a voice clearly saying they wish they could die. I wish I could have held her and made it all better. I wish she was back to the way she used to be... She says I'm still her best friend and that I always was and always will be. I guess I never lost my spot. I wish I could be there for her now- I could. I'm done with relationships so that won't get in the way. She deserves a friend. She also deserves someone who loves her so much that they're SO careful not to make her cry or break her heart. This girl never deserved what happened to her. Unfortunatly, it's not me who can ammend the last part. She just needs to find someone who can soon, because she can't survive without it.