Shitfucksomebodykillmenow. I poured my heart out to someone last night..... Just sat there a typed out every feeling left. My God, she's seriously the most amazing person. God hates me... He really does. But still, atleast I could go to sleep knowing someone was thinking about me. I don't know how better I can emphasize how much I care. This morning has shot itself to hell though. 3 people called in a row and me thinking it was just Rachel and Steph at 10 AM didn't pick up. I'm a dumbass. SHAUN called. Shaun called on his cell phone from camp and I fucking slept through it. I'm beyond angry. I keep getting a busy signal... Just tried again... Still busy. He's coming home a week from today. Holy crap, Shaun's coming home. Wow, how long did we wait for this? Dillema now isn't there? Yeah... I don't know if I can take advantage of that now but... Still, it would be nice to see him. Brenda called too and I called her back. She's freaking out crying because her dad knows about her and Reed and called parents and is forbidding her to see him. I feel so freaking bad for her about it too as she really didn't do anything wrong. Dude, she's 16 fricken years old. Can't she do what she wants? He's only 19... That's the same age difference between me and........ Yeah. Maybe it's different when you're both under 18. Alright, it's still busy... I'm going insane. I'm going to go lie back down. This day hasn't started off well. Leave me love... Please?