Why is it... She apologizes a hundred times over for things she didn't do wrong and I just feel guiltier and guiltier? I can never feel completely adequate for too long because I go and do something stupid to fuck it up. I should have anticapated her having to go sooner, should have wished her a proper goodbye, should have payed more attention to the fact that tomorrow is her last day as a freshman, last day at her highschool. I feel like such a bad girlfriend for even getting into something else tonight. Damn. Wow. She deserves better then my overbearing lust and mood swings. She says she owes me but... I think it's the other way around. I went from feeling elated to feeling emotionally drained... And I forgot to text her in the car today. Damnit. I'm slipping up, aren't I? I'll be better tomorrow, I promise. < / 3