Finally... Today of every day in the whole year it could have been, it feels like everything has fallen into place. For months I was walking around wondering if I was ever going to feel whole again. For a long time, I put myself in these half relationships which where never defined as being more or less then that. For a long time, I felt used and broken and like a complete whore for not knowing what I was. It's difficult to explain who that can make someone feel like a whore, but it can. A lot has happened in a short period of time... Or maybe really it's been a long period of time and this is finally what it feels like to have things feel right for once. There's a million reasons for this. My friends aren't mad at me, I'm getting along with my entire family, I've got lots to look forward to, and like icing on the cake, perhaps they'll be a really great guy to go along with all that. It feels good to know how much I mean to my friends and family again. It feels good to just talk to someone who's not afraid to say what they're feeling... It just feels good in general to be able to open up again. I'm not even sure what started all this but every day is just feeling better and better. I don't have to worry about approval or dissaproval to just be me and most importantly, I can smile a smile that isn't forced. Who knows how long states of happiness like mine last... I'm hoping it will be quite awhile. It's an incredible feeling to know that people care about you and that everyone is on your side. It makes me feel complete to realize I can't think of one person who hates me... And most of all, for the first time in over a year, I feel like a person again and it's all thanks to the people in my life who leave a quick message on my answering machine, or an IM just to tell me they care. There's so many people I just want to hug and thank even if I only feel like this a little longer... Because right now, I feel infinate... And I know how rare that is.