I'm homesick for Long Island... I hate it here right now. Everyone just talks crap behind everyone else's backs. The only person I can stand to be around for more then five seconds around here is Rachel because she's not fucking stuck on herself and she doesn't talk crap about me behind my back. Honestly, people wonder /why/ I don't hang out anymore. There's your reason. You all need to grow up and start being more mature or I'm not even making the effort anymore. If you have something to say, say it to my face or keep your mouth shut because it gets back to the person you say it about. The thing about highschool is, you can't trust someone to simply keep their mouth shut. If it starts more drama, it will be said and it's exactly what's happening. If something honestly bugs you enough to piss and moan about it, atleast have the decency to say it to a person's face. Until then... I will continue to not hang out with any of you people outside of school and will continue to simply talk to the people who actually care about me and don't treat me like I am some metal basket case or worse, that I don't even exist. I don't even need to say it by now. You should know if I'm mad at you or not and to those I'm clinging to, I'm really sorry. I feel horrible for being so annoying. I just want things to get better. Don't read into this wrong and think I'm suicidal or some little ranty kid who doesn't appreciate anything... It's just my feelings at the time. Every once in a blue moon I love it here but... Not lately. I just want get out of this hell hole town. People just can't make that happen for me here anymore... Whatever /that/ was to begin with.