I'm sorry to everyone I've upset and who was upset last night. I'm sorry to Brenda and Reed because she was going through hell with him and still listened to me I'm sorry to Rachel who was tired and didn't care and still tried to be there and I'm sorry to Stephanie who was going through her own shit and called at the crack of dawn to make sure I was ok. I'm sorry to all of you. I don't deserve you at all right now... And above all, I'm sorry to you because of all the people I don't deserve it's you. I know you said it's not my fault but I feel like I'm partially to blame anyway. I'm sorry it lead to tears because I know that's not you and the one thing in the entire world that I wanted to do last night, I couldn't. That was jumping on a plane and wiping away every tear myself and making sure you didn't have to go through this alone. Atleast you had your dad. I still wish I could have hugged you 'til the cows came home though. No matter what, that's still what we're going to try for. That never left my mind. I suppose you're right when you say it can only get better. Good things can come of this and hopefully they will. The best thing to see will be a smile on your face (or atleast hearing you laugh again) Wonderful people who care so deeply shouldn't ever get hurt. I still stand by this. You're too cool of a person to be upset. Ever... And wicked awesome, man! ^^; Hoping I'm cheering you up with this. I'm hoping you actually want to talk to me when I get home. I'll have from 2:30 to 7:00 and we'll talk or just *snuggle* the whole time if you want. Everything's gonna be alright. And on a final note, my Grandma in Florida was in a car accident. She's alright I guess but... I can't even ask about it. I can't cry or show emotion or anything now. I'm leaving in five minutes and the eyeliner will run. Mom's going to tell me about it in the car. Wow, talk about everyone having bad experiances lately.