Hey, I want to crawl out of my skin. Apologize for all my sins. All the things I should have said to you. Hey, I can't make it go away. Over and over in my brain again. All the things I should have said to you. Counting stars wishing I was okay. Crashing down was my biggest mistake. I never, ever meant to hurt you. I only did what I had to. Counting stars again. I'm so sorry for the hell I've put you through this week. Please don't read my last entry if you don't want to hear me sound like a complete downer. You don't deserve anymore stress on your plate right no. I'm so sorry if I've hurt you at all in the past couple days. I hope I'm soon enough going to get the chance to make up for everything I've done wrong. I'm not perfect to you anymore. I'm sorry all my bad qualities keep showing up. I'm sorry I don't feel like I'm beautiful to you anymore. I'll make everything better if you let me. I'll make you happy as can be again and I'll try not to mess it all up this time. I don't always mess up, really. Hey dear... I was thinking today about this song and how we related it to Julius and Rylee... And then I thought about how much it relates to us as well. However, in a more literal sense, I thought about "counting stars" too. Someday, can we go outside and go star gazing? Will you hold me in your arms and wait all night with me until we see a shooting star? Can we try to count them? You said you'd do anything for me... Promise me someday. Promise me I've got a chance to have a chance... Promise me when we count stars we'll be happy. I can't to see that smile you say is because of me in person. I can't wait to kiss both corners of your mouth and let time stop in the depths of my mind. I've been dreaming again. I promised you I would last night, and I did. I know I can be a complete jerk, but I DON'T break my promises.