The party was way more fun than I was expecting it to be. There were so many people there and yet the one person I wanted to hang out with the most wasnt there. Ok, sure it was fun to flirt with the other guys, without actually trying to get them to like me, as none of them are guys that I could potentionally see myself with like I can with Dallan, but there was just...I dont know. There wasnt something there. I saw Mariah wrestling with Jacob, Jacob flirting shamelessly with Niki, and Trevor flirting even more shamlessly with all the girls. I wanted Dallan to be there, so that I would have the one I love closest to me. He would have made the party even more fun than it already was. I dont know. I just...I love him.