Just keep wishing, just keep wishing, just keep wishing, wishing, wishing...what do we do we wish, wish, wish.... Right...well now that that's done...erm... 6 more days until my birthday, not that anyone cares...there is a parade tomorrow and I have to wear that ugly makeup again...eek. In seminary today we were talking about what we as young women want in a man. A bunch of the girls said they wanted a man who is able to show his emotions instead of tucking them away. I thought of something when I got home: one thing I want in a man is someone who will call me ''beautiful'' instead of ''hot''. Of course, right now most guys only really think about how ''hot'' a girl is and that is all that really seems to matter; she could be the most deadly boring person in the world and they wouldn't care because she's ''so hot!''. I wish that what was in a girl's head mattered than what she was wearing or what her makeup looked like or how her hair was done. But then, why does it really matter right now? No guy is ever going to look at me and be seriously interested. None really have as of yet and I would be suprised if someone really did. I just want to be loved for who I am, not for what I look like. Me and KJ asked two of our guy-friends if they have dates to homecoming and Dallan is taking Kaylee (spelling???). Landon said he doesnt know who he is taking. KJ told him he should ask me. I looked at KJ weird and then me and Landon gave each other weird looks. Then Landon said, ''But you're so short!'' which is true, and we both laughed because I guess we both know that he isnt going to ask me. Heartbreaking, I know. Only not really. I dont see Landon as more than a friend. He's really sweet though. And fun to be around. Grief. I told Austin he should take me to the dance and he used his ''no money'' excuse. Except that he and KJ were talking to Joann yesterday and were saying that Austin should take her to homecoming and Austin said that would be nifty (who uses the word ''nifty'' anymore anyways?). Austin is stupid. But also very fun. Fun to flirt with that is. I like flirting... I'm jealous of Emily. She is going to SV's homecoming AND MC's homecoming. Lucky girl...she gets asked to two...it makes me sad. But happy for her. She's awesome. Then again, I'm not alone in the ''not being asked'' department; Cassie hasn't been asked either (which is weird because she just turned 17 and is a junior. Also very sweet. I'm suprised she hasn't been asked yet). Although Landon (tuba Landon; I can't spell his last name to save my life) said that a girl (he won't tell me who) told him he has to ask me to the dance; that would be interesting... At least there's still another two weeks until homecoming; maybe I will get asked. But I doubt it. Right.... ''Someday, when I'm awfully low and the world is cold I will feel a glow just thinking of you and the way you look tonight.''