Someday it will all be different. Someday we will not have to worry about everything. Someday money will just be there and we won't have to worry about bills.

Why can't someday be now?

I need to get a second job or something because I feel like I'm not helping enough. I'm not getting enough hours, I don't make enough. And Noah has to feel the responsibility. Always. Because if it were not for his paychecks, we wouldn't make it. Not even close. So I need to get another job. Or something. I need to help more. Or something. I don't know. He is so good to me. Always. And I feel like I just fall short all the time. Like I'm always going to have to run to catch up to how awesome and good and wonderful he is.

Ugh.

I know it won't always be this way. But it kinda sucks for now.

Also if anyone knows of somewhere that has x-ray technician classes and whatever, let me know?