I feel like I'm the worst girlfriend ever. Noah had me come over for the morning session of conference this morning before I had to be to work, and about half an hour after I got to his place, he fell asleep. And I was a little grumpy about it. Which I probably shouldn't have gotten worked up about, I mean he does need sleep. I just felt like he shouldn't have had me come over if he was just going to sleep anyways. Oh well. He is so good to put up with me. I dunno, I just feel like time is going by so fast, but really we've only been dating for two months. I mean I already know that he is the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with and all that jazz. I've never felt this way about anyone else, not even Kimber (and I was in love with Kimber for the better part of three and a half years). I'm a chatterbox, but when I'm around Noah, and we've been talking and there's a lull in the conversation, I don't feel like I need to find something to say to make the silence go away. I am perfectly content to just walk and hold his hand (or sit and hold his hand) or snuggle up to him and listen to his breathing and heartbeat. And while I'm thinking about it, listening to his heartbeat is such a soothing sound. Any time I'm upset he just pulls me in to hug him and my ear is resting right above his heart and I can hear it beating. I don't know why, but that is really just about the most soothing sound in the world. I could fall asleep listening to his heart. In fact, since he sleeps on his back, if we (or rather, WHEN) get married, I will fall asleep every night listening to his heart. He truly is a most amazing person. He is constantly telling me how beautiful I am, and then when I don't really say anything he wonders aloud why I don't think I'm pretty. It's kind of the same thing with him. He doesn't think that he's as good to me as he is. Any time I tell him how amazing he is, he just says "I'm just doing what I should". He does so much more than that, I don't know how he doesn't see it. He is a balm for my healing heart and soul. I want to spend the rest of my life with him.