Sometimes I'm scared that I'm making the worst mistake of my life, and sometimes I know beyond knowing that this is the right thing for me to do. I'm just scared. After all the crap I have dealt with in regards to Kimber, and Josh, and Landon...and all the other guys that I have dated that have just left me alone...well, there is just the tiniest part of my that it just waiting for the other shoe to drop. I don't know, I just wonder how he can love me so unconditionally, but at the same time I know he does, and I love him so much for that. He is amazing, and I am so grateful to have him in my life. I can't wait to be married to him. I want to start our life together. I love him so much.