it seems like the only people who really care about me are a grand total of three people: kj, who is my very closest friend and for whom i would do anything; taren, who is so involved in her own life but still asks me to tell her about my life (makes me feel indebted); and--- oh, wait...maybe it really was just those two..at any rate, those two are freaking awesome. nothing makes sense anymore, guy-wise. there have been two guys in the last five months that have claimed to have feelings for me and then have completely turned around. and fool that i am i believed them. fool. valentine's day. *shudder* i dont think i need to say more about the first. end of the school year. a whole 15 hour relationship that he didnt really want. idiot. i mean, seriously. am i really that aweful that people say things like 'i love you' and then decide that i am not good enough or something? what the heck is up with that? not like they would ever really tell me that there was something wrong, they just expect me to figure whatever the crap it is out for myself. stupid. what is wrong with me???