I seriously feel like no one ever really reads this diary anymore. Maybe I should stop writing in it. Its kind of pointless. I kind of only use to for venting now. Ok, well, to NOT use it for venting, here's what's been going on lately. Yesterday I felt sick, but I got up and got ready for church, but I started coughing and ended up coughing so much I threw up, and my mom had me go back to bed and sleep. I'm so sick of being...well...sick. I've had a constant cold since I got back from Arizona a week ago and its really annoying. Nate likes me. The boy lives in freaking St. George and hasn't ever met me and he likes me. He was one of the boys KJ met at EFY last year. He's really cute. But after the last experience I had with a guy...I'm not sure that I'm ready to fall for someone again. I don't want to get hurt again. I know, I know. "If you hide your feelings because you're afraid of getting hurt, you wind up hurt anyways." But that's not the point. I know that I shouldn't be scared to fall for someone again. I can't help but be scared. I just....I don't want to be hurt. I don't want to fall for him because he lives totally on the other side of the state. I haven't ever even seen him face to face. I've only ever seen pictures of him. And I also don't know how he could really like me all that much--he doesn't know me. Sure, he gets hints of it when we talk, but its not like he gets a whole lot of me. There is so much about me that he doesn't know. Actually...there is a LOT about me that no one really knows. Like what's been going on with my family. And that's all I'm going to say about that. School's going good, I guess. Parent teacher conference is today and tomorrow. So I don't have school tomorrow, and I don't know what I'm going to do. Sit at home all day, i'd be willing to bet. No one ever calls me or invites me to go do stuff, not that I'd have a way to get out to go do anything anyways unless the persno who invited me were to come and get me. Ok, I'm really done complaining now. Laters all.