Haven't felt like I've worked all week, even though I've had three shifts, and still have three more to go for the week. Its probably because I haven't had any evening shifts at Callaways yet. I had a "moment" the other night. Totally just...blew up at everyone. Hollie texted me the next morning to see how I was. I felt bad about exploding though. But my frustration is starting to get the better of me, which I hate. I also wish I knew what was going on with Josh. Maybe...I don't know. I just feel like I'm not good enough. It makes me feel lame, because he'll text me all day, then when he gets home he'll start gaming and ignore me (ok not just me, everyone, but still). So I don't know. It just feels like I backed off to give him space and time to figure out how he feels, and he doesn't even try...he just games every night. Which is part of my frustration. One of my girlfriends is telling me that I should just give up, because "he doesn't deserve me" and that "it's not worth it". But I know how I feel, and when he isn't sure of how he feels, it hardly seems fair to just walk away. I don't know, it's just all confusing right now. Haven't talked to him today, because I don't know what to say. He has his little gaming world, so I feel like I don't compare. Whatever. I just...Ugh! I don't know. It seems to me that he should have figured out how he felt before asking me to go steady with him. It's not fair to me. But whoever said life was fair?