So does being scared. Today me and KJ hung out with Landon. And as per usual, he was being crazy and flirty and whatever. So, I was being my usual self, and being all flirty (since I've found recently that I'm over him. Wow, I know). We eventually got over to KJ's house and were hanging out on her front lawn, and I was sitting, staring off and thinking, so Landon comes up to sit by me and asked me if I was being contemplative. I told him that no, I was just thinking. So Landon being Landon, he asked me what I was thinking about. I was thinking abotu stuff, so I told him so. He took it to mean that I was thinking about our breakup, which I was. Man, that guy is one of the few who can read me better than KJ can. So he said, as best I can remember, "I think I might have made a mistake." And me, being me, I had to make him clarify what he meant. It took him about ten minutes to finally tell me, but what he said was something that scared me. He said something to the effect of, "I think I made the wrong choice when I broke up with you." Ok, so me...I like that I'm over him. But there's always going to be that part of me that wonders what could have happened, and wants him to want to work things out, but then there's the practial side to me that says, "He let you go the first time, he broke your heart, who is there to say that he won't do it again? Don't make the same mistake twice." On a better note, band got over today and I was invited (or rather, invited by default because I was in the car) to hang out with Kaylee, Kameron, and Emily when they went to A&W to get ice cream. Landon ended up coming to with none other than....BEDONT! I was a little shocked to see him in the instrument storage room today, seeing as I hadn't seen him since...oh, February. But it was cool. Yup. Today's just been all sorts of weirdness, but parts of it were good. I guess. Except now I don't know what to do about Landon. I want to talk to Eric...or maybe I should talk to Kimber...he's always helped with the stupid boy issues. I think I need a hug...