hm. im at my house today, i didnt feel like dealing with people at school today and going to a track meet on a monday. my sister is here to, she is "sick"....hmm. jess serano pretty much hates me now, because i didnt go to school. and she just thinks the whole world revolves around whether she is happy or not. so im just getting sick of dealing with her. i want to pay attention to myself and not have to worry whether or not she is happy. I feel as if the only person i can really trust in Maccray is Meagan. everyone else seems like they have betrayed me as a friend. I want to go back to willmar. but since school is almost finished i may as well stay in Maccray. gosh. i dont want to go to school ever anymore. i dont want to deal with peoplle! besides willmarians. and meagan. my mom told me i give up on everything... um your quitting your job because u cant deal with people there? its just like me wanting to go to willmar now. isnt that giving up? i have been wanting to be with my horses a lot more. that is one place i can get away from my own feelings, and worry about other things. even though yesterday a husky and a rott mix, almost tore me to shreds if it wernt for my horse. im not going past that farm ever again i just think that everyone hates me at this point. im stuck in my own little world where even i dont belong.