im back here again.. mom doesnt trust me at dads.. thinks i will kill myself or run away. or do some stupid stuff, ended up leaving.. god only knows how long it will be till everything is screwed up here again becuase i probably wont have rides home.. noone understands why its impossible to live at my dads.. it makes me mad. because noone really knows him. and how i just cant get along with him on anything. jason is moving in soon. i cleaned the cat boxes and my fish tanks so im glad thats done. so. getting home from school will be a problem to. but i will find a way, moms friend said if i needed anything just call her. so, school was okay today very usual and the same. gym wasnt that bad today. i can see jack everyday that makes me happy. sam got me a muffin. i wonder how weird it was for her friends to watch me come in pissed and leave crying ... not even saying a word to them. it was awkward seeing them in school. today it was hard to be my usual self. to much stress on my mind. just wish i would blink and i could be in this cool land where your with all these people smiling. yet thats creepy but it makes me smile to myself my fingers are cold.. this house is just super cold. i have 3 blankets on me at night. i fall asleep to my fish tank. 1 more day closer to tony coming home. yay. he listens to me. i love him. jason wants me to ride with him for beets again. .i would but i have school. cant drop out till im 16. probably will graduate though. my as well have a life when i turn 18.