i have to help my dad clean windows since he is spazzstic about my sisters graduation.i mean seriously i dont think the house has to be SPOTLESS since i would think more people are just going to pay attention to sam. ugh and he wanted to bring schnitty to a boarding place...what a retard i cant stand him he wont even let jack come inside.. all i want is to be close to my dog sometimes maybe its killing him that i love my dog more then i love him. alli is tending to be with sarah now and I guess she let john back into her life its just weird how john got to come back so quickly and she still just keeps me away it doesnt seem so fair i feel so wasted away by people that i thought cared about me. im not happy anymore and i dont want to live in this house im stuck inside a shell because no one even tries to open it. if you dont think i seem like a good friend even after all this time i thought i was. I dont deserve to have your friendship then i guess. i just think you dont like me at all anymore just please throw me away so i can rot