im trying to think of a reason. i was thinking of one for the whole time at the mall. and i couldnt. i dont understand is it because i smoke that she wont like me mom doesnt care. i dont care. so why do you im never going to measure up to you. im not perfect noone is. so why do people have to treat you like that? iv been having a horrible time with all this shit going through my head. im a really good person but yet its like noone will even try to talk to me. amber ignores me when shes around sam she always takes her side. am i losing basically the only friend i have i dont want to i would like to have someone else to talk to... but noone will take the time to do so. felijah needs to leave me alone. people have to stop making fun of me. this past whole week iv just felt like giving up the only person right now that i can say i have been getting along with is jeff. and its like i barely ever have a chance to talk to him. my mom is poor now. alida wont stop calling me fat. my lunch sucks. my 3rd block sucks. life is starting to overall just suck. i just want to curl up and forget who i even am. Can’t find the answers I’ve been crawling on my knees Looking for anything To keep me from drowning Promises have been turned to lies Can’t even be honest inside Now I’m running backward Watching my life wave me goodbye Running blind I’m running blind Somebody help me see I’m running blind Searching for nothing Wondering if I’ll change I’m trying everything But everything still stays the same I thought if I showed you I could fly Wouldn’t need anyone by my side Now I’m running backward With broken wings I know I’ll die