I think im going to write a decent thing this time even though noone looks at it. i guess i dont care much at all.. well my mother is going to sell her horse and the pony so great, my horse will get depressed and hate me. i tried. but either way my mom will sell them. i think i have only seen my mom for this week when she is at the bar or sleeping. well today she drove by when we were done with the movies. i didnt feel like going to the movies.i feel left out. but i have nothing better to do.... the horses were in my head also. and everything else i guess that just makes me mad. i have been thinking a lot.. if my dad buys my grandparents farm. maybe i could move my horse out there and just live with him. i mean its like every day my mom is threatening me to live with him. so i just should. i sort of want to. like a lot actually,. tomorrow is the jonny holms street dance. i might go. but i dont know who is going. and if my mom goes she will just be around drunk people which is no fun. i want some friends to be there so i dont seem like a loner. but i dont know. ryan wubben keeps calling me and telling me he wants me to be his Fu*k buddy. but no he is just weird im listening to the reanimation of my december by linkin park. its a lot cooler to listen to. boop im tired. i saved a little kitty that was under our porch its like legs are broken and its underweight yet my mom wont let me bring it to the vet she doesnt want to spend money.. its really sad. but whatever