soo another weekend. flew by. school tomorrow .. er. stupid. overall it was ok. i got spazzed at every day by my mom .. jason and kathy are trying to tell me how much i should love my mom and that my life isnt bad... that just makes me more mad so i just told them about my past. and now i think kathy feels a a little bad for me she was like trying to make my mom take us somewhere to spend time with us... but my mom was like.. eh i have already saw them today... then she decided to ask us if we wanted to go to applebees with her and wade but i didnt want to go she was crabby and the only reason she asked us now was because wade was going with her i seriously think she hates me .... i usually just have amber with me every weekend i feel bad for not including my other friends but when i make plans with them they just seem to fall apart ahhh i just have to dedicate one weekend with meagan and ally maybe sam if she could do something. but i know that usually amber is the only one that can stay the whole weekend. and i just get so alone here and actually feel like killing someone, jason is here every once in a while but now he just started going out drinking a lot now and i dont like talking to him when he is drunk its just stupid.. so anyway . im just waiting for another week of boringness and another weekend of sitting around doing nothing which i like better... but anyway