okay. so my dad called last night. didnt answer listened to his message decided maybe i would give him a chance and call him so i did and he brings up school and stupid stuff so i immediatly stopped talking to him.. i got a letter saying i failed gym which pissed me off completely since mr larson said he would pass me with a A . if i fail i will spazz . at thee office and mr larson. i feel the immediate change of myself when i walk into my moms house and notice that i turn into this walking bitch that pretty much hates everything.. i feel bad cause lauras brother got attacked by a husky.. got sent to the ER... i really am starting to miss tony. some stupid kid brought up that everyone that plans to be in the war shouldnt care to graduate they willl just get shot anyway .. which isnt a very nice thing to say especially when someone you love is in iraq fighting for us.. just come back soon. and safe. i dont know what would happen if i didnt see you ever again.. i dont like my classes. im starting to suck at spanish. since i plainly dont care. i just zone out and think of really weird and stupid things. but thats what makes me ... me. so yes. i dont feel comfortable talking to jeff when jenna can see me. because i dont want her to not like me.. and i just hope she understands that me and jeff are only friends. i couldnt sleep last night so i ended up writing in my diary. its been a while im almost done with that one so i will have to go buy another one.. all i basically do is write poems and entries and stuff.. mom didnt come home again. shes home now. but i know the only reason is because sam is here. that is my update. everything is basically the same. just starting to get worse.