So anyway.. me and cole have been talking some more... he wishes i was in the cities with him, cause they were just wandering around there i guess... after a concert. he is looking forward to the summer. because i guess we are going to hang out a lot. hmm. im not sure, i have a feeling he is going to get to know me a lot more, and end up not liking me, and end up ditching me, so i dont know if i am like pushing him away from me because i am scared of that happening to me... umm yesterday, we went to the movies and it was RV and it was was soo stupid..mario like it though, he liked that lady that wore little shirts haha. today i was spose to go drink coffee with my dad... but i could have just told him im getting good grades haha since thats prettty much all he asks me.. jon and josh are here..wow i dont know why, they are fags and i want to kill them because they hate me and i want to kill them...ummm.. i heart mudvayne. i think i am done now... Wow. Things that just totally make me mad.. is people who can be just so cruel...i mean in studyhall these stupid kids are talking about whipping snakes against trees and shooting cats and just all these things that really get to me.. people who talk of things like that are just so screwed up in the head it seriously ticks me off. I mean seriously ... how low can people get to torture animals for fun? grrr just makes me want to torture them! i mean hearing things of bull fighting, circuses, zoo's, fur industry, trapping, hunting, testing on animals, puppy mills, slaughter houses, dog sledding, horse racing, abuse, neglect, and just so many more things make me so mad. and stupid kids in my school just talk of how cool those things are. and it just helps me notice of how stupid and cruel people can be...i mean our geo teacher made us watch a mexican bullfight because he thought it was soo cool to watch i literally told him he was messed up in the head and that i wouldnt watch it. he just told me to look away but i couldnt sit there and watch people enjoy the fact that this animal is gettting killed slowly and painfully, wow. . how stupid can people be.