im sad. i screwed up this weekend. ive only had 8 hours of sleep. iv been laying in bed since 12 and just been sleeping. i want to talk to tony. i want to have someone to talk to. tomorrow will be horrible. i havent done any of my home work. my dad threatend me on the phone this time i laughed at him. im so sick of him putting me down. and i dont want to go "talk" to him. cause i am sick of hearing.. your failing. and i dont want you to live at moms yet i wont let you live here cause i dont want dog hair in my house. how sad is that.he doesnt get me.he doesnt relize everything that he says really makes me feel useless.I cant change who i am. im just giving up on him. so all iv ate today was a banana and a bagel and a piece of a cookie.i dont like to eat anymore. im not looking forward to christmas.I want to actually feel like myself when i see my family.at 9 i have to watch Intervention. i hope i stay up that long.I dont feel like talking to anyone tomorrow. im just going to be really angry since im so tired and i dont like being mean to anyone. i need a lock for my door...i mean iv never really worried about these guys in our house and stuff. and yeah they do come in my room and think they can just bother me. or when im not here they think they can sleep there. but now... my mom is having this other guy move in.and he seriously creeps me out. i dont want anything to happen...to me.i mean when your drunk.you really cant control anything and just what if one day there will be a certain guy that doesnt think.2 more years and i can move out.i wont have to be afraid of my house,i wont have to beg my dad to let jack live with him so i could be there