I woke up at 9. i no longer can get good sleep here it was nice staying at anthonys cause i could sleep there. maybe i should just lose my keys more so i can slowly stop showing up here at night. Alli and Sarah have grown distant. that stupid shit is more better then our friendship. its always nice to see who my friends are. so i went jogging this morning stopped by my grandmas but sam and mom were still sleeping and grandma made it obvious she didnt want me around so i ran ... got tired and hot so started heading home when i got inside i almost threw up but laid down for about five minutes then jumped in the shower. laid around then decided to go on the computer cause its really the only thing you can do here. my court date is coming up and i really dont want to go through with this. i just want to rip up all the stupid stuff that got me in trouble... you know we dont fully become adults till around 22... guys dont till 24. i dont know what i should do..... noone seems to like hanging out with me anymore other then tj and ryan and antwonnnn and ef. but thats cool cause i know they wouldnt rate me lower then drugs like others i used to hang with...........