this is actually the first serious time i am thinking about packing most of my things and leaving. probably not to my dads even. probably to ambers. or just to no where. i hate this, my mom hates me . and i guess i made her cry when she told me her and wade are leaving to somewhere this weekend. andd all i asked was where and she freaked out and started yelling at me. saying that i should mind my buisness and stop controlling her life? i just sat there and asked her to stop yelling. and i told her she is never home... she leaves and says shes going to coffee. but doesnt come home till 1 am. and then says she was at the casino... her excuse was telling me that i am always gone so i shouldnt have to worry about her , she is never here. or if she is its with a friend or wade probably telling them that im a jerk. i asked her one questioon.. just to know where she would be going. and she flips. then goes to her rooom and cries. well does it make me feel bad ... no it doesnt? because either she is drinking again. or just doesnt even like us to the point where she never wants to see us anymore. i didnt know that a boyfriend or alcohol or friends were much better then us. it just really sucks. and its hard not to cry as i write this. because all of this is true. and i cant take it anymore... pretty soon. im gone. im not going to live here anymore. being at school is better. but once i think about going home to nothing just makes me all sad again... i hate living in this town so far away with nowhere to go to when things are the worst. my moms going to wades now.. what ever go tell him how bad you hate us. and dont come like always. .. then come home and yell at us... no big deal .. were fine.