We are now together... which is kind of okay i guess. someone said it doesn't seem right because I am a wild horse grazing where I please and He said now that I have a saddle on I no longer am free. I like that. It almost made me totally think why am I even doing this. But Maybe just to... tie me over? Hold me Down? I guess I want another source of "love" not that its love or anything I just mean someone else I can spend time with who makes me feel a little bit better. I Am Just Confused. Court went Well... I think It went by better Because more people were focused on my parents fighting and my dad saying he doesn't want to pay for anything and how he could care less about my future and my mom saying he is useless and bla blah bla. I wanted to Die right then. But I just zoned onto the floor and pretended that It opened up while slowly slipping in it and being lost within this life. and forgetting all my mistakes... and the people I thought were my friends. I dont feel the need to apologize because you are the ones that make me hate you make me not want to see you. that is your fault start treating me with more respect and maybe just maybe things could go back to how they were. otherwise i have my own life now. and i have other friends. i have things i need to do. get used to that