after NOT talkin to me all day he finally IMed me let me have it then left b4 i could get a word in :( heres what he had to say... Sk8erChick2004 [3:52 PM]: hey Auto response from Toxictouch [3:52 PM]: I am having a really bad day, and i dont' want to talk to ANYONE!! I NEED A CIG!!! Sk8erChick2004 [3:52 PM]: so has ur journal thing been worked out yet Sk8erChick2004 [3:58 PM]: okie well ima go write in mine actually cuz im pretty bored.. holla Auto response from Toxictouch [3:58 PM]: I am having a really bad day, and i dont' want to talk to ANYONE!! I NEED A CIG!!! Sk8erChick2004 [4:17 PM]: read the comments lol Toxictouch [5:12 PM]: yeah i did totally see taht you are trying to find an easy escape from me , while you let me make all this promises that i will keep just untill you find that route Toxictouch [5:13 PM]: But it sounds like you are letting me redeem myslef here still from all that pain i cuased, but as soon as i am redeemed and we are better, like yesterday when we had that great time, it is just like it is a great time untill you find that route to get away from me Toxictouch [5:14 PM]: and i have seen that all along Toxictouch [5:14 PM]: and i am trying to figure out ways to be sweet to you and let you know that my promises are as good as my love towards you, just so mayeb you could change your mind about leaving me when that easy route comes by Toxictouch [5:15 PM]: I have a feeling that this path you will choose is near, and i am scared taht you will choose that path that has no memories or anything to do with me Toxictouch [5:16 PM]: even though you let me know you love me and you show all your love, but when those times come by that you don't kiss me and i look into your eyes, i could see the decisions going through your head about wanting me or not, but if you want to call it toying with emotions or not Toxictouch [5:17 PM]: but at one moment i am totally happy when your happy cuz it lets me have a sence of not being afraid of you leaving me because of that happiness, and i dont' have anything to worry about Toxictouch [5:17 PM]: but then the next second i will be scared to death again cuz you are not kissing me cuz you can't, and when you bring up shit about how you can't live with me Toxictouch [5:18 PM]: i dont' know if it is the best thing or not for you to leave me, but alls i know is that i love you and cherish our love, i may not have done it before....... Toxictouch [5:18 PM]: but i do now. Toxictouch [5:18 PM]: and as long as we are toghether Toxictouch [5:18 PM]: thats it Toxictouch [5:18 PM]: bye