Toxictouch [5:14 PM]: i can't stay much longer i have to help my mom clean the hosue so we could have a good weekend together Toxictouch [5:15 PM]: for your birthday Sk8erChick2004 [5:15 PM]: what do u mean Sk8erChick2004 [5:15 PM]: oh Sk8erChick2004 [5:15 PM]: i feel like i dont deserve this Toxictouch [5:15 PM]: deserve me? Toxictouch [5:15 PM]: i didn't do anything Toxictouch [5:15 PM]: you do deserve me i deserve you Sk8erChick2004 [5:15 PM]: and i feel like it dont matter what i say or even if u do believe me Sk8erChick2004 [5:16 PM]: ill never believe myself Toxictouch [5:16 PM]: look sam i do beleive you Sk8erChick2004 [5:16 PM]: i cant seem 2 figure out why i did it at all Toxictouch [5:16 PM]: and i do hear everythign you say Toxictouch [5:16 PM]: it's okay Toxictouch [5:16 PM]: okay Toxictouch [5:16 PM]: ? Sk8erChick2004 [5:16 PM]: i dont know how 2 deal with it Toxictouch [5:16 PM]: look Toxictouch [5:16 PM]: forget abou tit Toxictouch [5:16 PM]: i mean Toxictouch [5:16 PM]: about it Toxictouch [5:16 PM]: it's okay sam Toxictouch [5:16 PM]: i love you Toxictouch [5:16 PM]: don't go walking out on me Toxictouch [5:16 PM]: please baby Sk8erChick2004 [5:16 PM]: its not all u its personal issues Sk8erChick2004 [5:17 PM]: im not leaving Sk8erChick2004 [5:17 PM]: but u dont understand Toxictouch [5:17 PM]: understand what? Sk8erChick2004 [5:17 PM]: its like the past is creeping its way in i feel like i felt with ex b/f's and the whole being lied about and used shit Sk8erChick2004 [5:17 PM]: and people saying one thing and doing others Toxictouch [5:17 PM]: i don't use you ! Toxictouch [5:17 PM]: okay Toxictouch [5:18 PM]: god what do i have to say to you to make you beleive me Toxictouch [5:18 PM]: sam Toxictouch [5:18 PM]: n/m Sk8erChick2004 [5:18 PM]: no Sk8erChick2004 [5:18 PM]: not u Sk8erChick2004 [5:18 PM]: i hurt, im hurting myself Sk8erChick2004 [5:19 PM]: like my mind is telling me i need to be punched Toxictouch13 [5:19 PM]: no you don't sam Sk8erChick2004 [5:19 PM]: like i deserve to be hurt Toxictouch [5:19 PM]: I FORGIVE YOU so it is okay Sk8erChick2004 [5:19 PM]: like what he did to me was just fine Sk8erChick2004 [5:19 PM]: but i guess i dont 4give myself Toxictouch13 [5:19 PM]: that is what hurts me Sk8erChick2004 [5:19 PM]: i think it hurts me cuz i liked it... and i wish i wouldnt have Toxictouch [5:19 PM]: that everyting he did to you and you did to him hurt me Sk8erChick2004 [5:19 PM]: i didnt Toxictouch [5:20 PM]: AND TAHT HURTS ME EVEN MORE Sk8erChick2004 [5:20 PM]: it hurts me too Toxictouch [5:20 PM]: Now i am depressed again Toxictouch [5:20 PM]: thanks Sk8erChick2004 [5:20 PM]: i hurt that u dont seem 2 be all on him 4 this Sk8erChick2004 [5:20 PM]: i wish i woulda taped this Sk8erChick2004 [5:20 PM]: so u coulda seen it wasnt all me Toxictouch [5:20 PM]: look sam, i don't know what to fucking say Toxictouch [5:20 PM]: i tried to flip on him Sk8erChick2004 [5:21 PM]: and what did he say Toxictouch [5:21 PM]: but 6you know i will get the shit kicked out of me Toxictouch [5:21 PM]: he gets' all pissy right when i say your name to him Sk8erChick2004 [5:21 PM]: why Toxictouch [5:21 PM]: cuz your the one with the truth Sk8erChick2004 [5:22 PM]: cuz he knows he was kissing my fucking neck and pushin himself ontop of me and he doesnt know i have it on tape lol Sk8erChick2004 [5:23 PM]: i seriously think he got pissed i wouldnt give him head Toxictouch [5:23 PM]: the point is that i hurt cuz you liked it, i hurt cuz i didn't go through your mind when it was happening cuz to you.........he was a million times me, he had better everything that me, that is why i can't kiss you or anything cuz i can't ever compare to be as good as him Toxictouch [5:23 PM]: bye ------------------------------ i just need sum1 to talk to and obviously it cant be him. heather will help me threw i hope :( bena too! and thanx 2 all of u that leave somments supporting me threw this. it shouldnt hurt but it does. and bryans wrong... he did go threw my mind just not the whole time.