wow ok im spleelar... hahaha yea half split personalities half bi polar... my 2 sides hate each other. but i made carly laugh! ok anyways bryan and i talked *normally* whoa, i know. but we did have a small fight over me dying my hair... i was gana try honey brown... ok he says no... and that its... "ewwy" direct quote. ok he hates brunettes... fine. me 2, i just wanted 2 try summin different. ooh well. but despite that i want to dedicate this 2 bryan... Have I told you how good it feels to be me, when I'm in you? I can only stay clean when you are around. Don't let me fall. If I close my eyes forever, would it ease the pain? Could I breathe again? Maybe I'm addicted, I'm out of control, but you're the drug that keeps me from dying. Maybe I'm a liar, but all I really know is you're the only reason I'm trying. I am wasted away, I made a million mistakes. Am I too late? There is a storm in my head; it rains on my bed when you are not here. I'm not afraid of dying, but I am afraid of losing you. Maybe I'm addicted, I'm out of control, but you're the drug that keeps me from dying. Maybe I'm a liar, but all I really know is you're the only reason I'm trying. When you're lying next to me love is going through to me. Oh it's beautiful. Everything is clear to me 'till I hit reality and I lose it all... I lose it all... I lose it all. I lose it all... Nah nah nah nah nah nah.... Nah nah nah nah nah nah..... nah nah nah nah nah nah.... You're the only reason, Yeah, you're the only reason I'm trying, Oh, I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying, Don't want to lose it all, Don't want to lose it all, I'm trying, I'm trying.. I'm trying ... Yeah, you know I'm addicted, You know I'm addicted, Yeah, you know I'm addicted.... oh man i get 30 comments a week saying "nice layout i love nmbc..." lol or i go 2 some random diary and see im on their friends list and i never even seen their diary then i feel bad :/ i duno y everyone reads this piece of crud or finds my life so amusing? i find it dull. eh. i enjoy the comments compliments and friends... yep yep so i shall not complain! lol