ok the truth must eventually come out... how about now since im not one to lie. bryans upset about me and brian and the past... i cant blame him, i used to cry everyday b/c of the things he put me threw. so heres the 411 - ugh... the feeling i felt 4 him were more than likness... i dont think it was quite love... 2 soon to be it - i do however remember the feeling i got when he called me every night or when i knew he was coming over i remember in my head planning out how id seduce him even b4 we started talking about having sex i tired sooo hard to get him to come over... i knew if i got him here somehow he wouldnt turn down sex... what virgin would? - the 1st time i saw him he looked at me as if he could see my soul right threw my eyes he didnt take his eyes off mine when we 1st met i felt special in a sense - i got his number and started it out right away playing it casual. (i remember saying- we should be friends so me and bryan both have the same friends at the wedding) - then i remeber how i said i wanted him to come over so we could 'hang out' somehow he found out i had planned to seduce him and he went with it telling me he could make my wildest fantasys a reality.... -bryan found out and we stopped briefly he didnt mind hurting bryan i suppose cuz he went right back to it until bryan found out again and they staged a fight -after that i split away but gave it one last try by telling him my fantasy about him and he said no cuz id tell bryan and that was the end of it i was crushed beyond belief i said id kill whoever took his virginity i had no1 to run to and all along i hadnt cared about bryans feelings but then again hearing him cry made me want to kill myself thats when i knew there was no me and brian k. it was me and bryan forever. i probably ruined bryan and brians friendship all 4 a bit of lust. i am ashamed of what i did and i can admit that i also can admit that if bryan did this to me id kill him and her so i can see his pain and fury but i ont do this again i love him so much i want to spend my life with him i wont jeprodize (sp?) that. the biggest truth here is... i hadnt thought about me and brian and the lust i felt like ive never felt 4 any other until bryan threw it in my face tonight the last time i felt that lust was when my bryan was here and we were fucking and i closed my eyes and saw brian k. i kept my eyes closed and dreamed of him... it was ruff and hott, bryans never been that way b4... and i wanted it worse and worse. it was hard and fast, and the screaming of his name filled the room in my head... but then bryan asked me to say his last name and i froze. he knew. i wanted to die. i want to make homecoming night like that 4 me and bryan full of passion and lust wild rough sex like we cant live without it and we havent had it in years. i had planned on this for a while. im sooo sorry i did that 2 him, it started as revenge but i started falling in love. if anything blame not only me but him.... b/c he put me threw so much hell i wanted to make him feel my hurt. im sorry 4 this. sooo here was the fight: Toxictouch13 [9:50 PM]: i just don't like that you don't know if you will fuck someone you like if we're dating Sk8erChick2004 [9:51 PM]: i didnt say i would Toxictouch13 [9:51 PM]: you didn't say you fucking wouldn't either Toxictouch13 [9:51 PM]: makes me FINE AND FUCKING DANDY Sk8erChick2004 [9:51 PM]: i never did it b4 Toxictouch13 [9:51 PM]: you would have if i didn't stop it Sk8erChick2004 [9:52 PM]: u didnt stop me Toxictouch13 [9:52 PM]: i stoped brian Toxictouch13 [9:52 PM]: after him and i talked Sk8erChick2004 [9:52 PM]: he got lost Toxictouch13 [9:52 PM]: after that Toxictouch13 [9:52 PM]: you guyz were still FUCKING TRYING THE SHIT Toxictouch13 [9:52 PM]: so i talked to him about it Sk8erChick2004 [9:52 PM]: that 1st night the night i spend 4 hours doing my hair and getting ready and he never showed Toxictouch13 [9:53 PM]: and him and i figured shit out Sk8erChick2004 [9:53 PM]: its ok he hates me now Toxictouch13 [9:53 PM]: FUCK YOU!! DON'T TELL ME THE FUCKING SHIT YOU DID TAHT NIGHT SAM, FUCK YOU, FUCK HIM, FUCK US! Sk8erChick2004 [9:53 PM]: no Sk8erChick2004 [9:53 PM]: whats ur problem thats so gone Sk8erChick2004 [9:53 PM]: he hates me Toxictouch13 [9:54 PM]: DON'T YOU FUCKING TELL ME THE DUMB SHIT YOU DID FOR HIM THAT NIGHT, AND MY PROBLEM IS THAT IT STILL FUCKING HURTS TAHT YOU DID THAT TO ME WITH MY FRIEND AND THAT HE WAS GOING TO DO THAT SHIT WITH ME, THAT YOU LIKED HIM THE FIRST TIME I INTRODUCED YOU TO HIM...... THAT IS KINDA A STAB IN THE BACK..... Toxictouch13 [9:55 PM]: to me* Sk8erChick2004 [9:55 PM]: im sorry its not that i liked him the 1st time i saw him its the way he looked at me Toxictouch13 [9:56 PM]: FUCK YOU SAM, YOUR REALLY HURTING ME RIGHT THIS MOMENT YOU SAY ANYMORE AND I AM NOT GOING WITH YOU TO THAT FUCKING DANCE, OR COMING TO YOUR HOUSE..........WE WILL BE OVER!! Toxictouch13 [9:56 PM]: SO DON'T TALK TO ME FOR A WHILE Sk8erChick2004 [9:56 PM]: hunni Sk8erChick2004 [9:56 PM]: i didnt do anything Toxictouch13 [9:56 PM]: NO STOP!! Sk8erChick2004 [9:56 PM]: ur upset 4 nothing Toxictouch13 [9:56 PM]: DON'T FUCKING TLAK TO ME Sk8erChick2004 [9:57 PM]: babi i want to talk to you Toxictouch13 [9:57 PM]: I AM UPSET THAT YOU WERE DOING IT TO MY FRIEND, PLANNIGN TO DO SHIT WITH HIM THAT CONQUERS ALL WE HAVE EVER DONE WITH EACHTOHER Toxictouch13 [9:57 PM]: AND THAT YOU FANTASIZED ABOUT THE SHIT Toxictouch13 [9:57 PM]: THAT YOUCARED HE TRIED TO RIDE HIS BIKE TO YOUR HOUSE Toxictouch13 [9:57 PM]: THAT I HAVE ALREADY DONE Toxictouch13 [9:57 PM]: YOU DON'T CARE THAT I DID Toxictouch13 [9:57 PM]: YOU WERE LIKE HE IS SO SWEET AND SHIT Sk8erChick2004 [9:58 PM]: i said u were sweet too Toxictouch13 [9:58 PM]: AND THAT YOU SPENT HOURS TIDYING UP FOR HIM Toxictouch13 [9:58 PM]: YEAH WELL FUCK YOU AND FUCK US, don't talk to me Toxictouch13 [9:58 PM]: goodbye Sk8erChick2004 [9:58 PM]: no i did my hair makeup and got dressed Sk8erChick2004 [9:58 PM]: i love you Toxictouch13 [9:58 PM]: bye Sk8erChick2004 [9:58 PM]: y Auto response from Toxictouch13 [9:58 PM]: I am sleeping right now, i am in bed prolly all fucking UPSET for how sam hurt me tonight.bye Sk8erChick2004 [9:59 PM]: god bryan Auto response from Toxictouch13 [9:59 PM]: I am sleeping right now, i am in bed prolly all fucking UPSET for how sam hurt me tonight.bye Sk8erChick2004 [9:59 PM]: i didnt do anything to hurt you Sk8erChick2004 [9:59 PM]: i love u Sk8erChick2004 [9:59 PM]: i thought u knew about all that b4 Sk8erChick2004 [9:59 PM]: what brought it up now Sk8erChick2004 [10:02 PM]: fine Sk8erChick2004 [10:03 PM]: dont answer Sk8erChick2004 [10:04 PM]: i tried 2 be sweet 2 u all day Sk8erChick2004 [10:04 PM]: tried 2 make u happy Sk8erChick2004 [10:04 PM]: then u go off on me Sk8erChick2004 [10:04 PM]: well w/e