i feel like im losing bryan. im losing my mind. i hate everything around me. im surrounded by a hate list (both sided) i want to run... keep running and never look back on these... the worst years of my life. cant i ever be happy? cant i just grow up and have my home and family my reason to live! i want to fast forward time, i want to run to that place in my future and see my grave... see my grave next to bryans this damn shit snow only got us a 2 hr delay. still being forced to go 2 that hell hole. i miss my sanity that jess girl better step down too. ill go 2 jail 4 kicking ass... but only if its worth it... this seems well worth it. i want to cry dry soundless tears.