01. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before? -slept with someone -stayed with someone even after being lied to -got a poem published -finished a book -stoped caring how i looked, dressed like, and what other people thought 02. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? -nope... i made a resolution to eat better and stay fit... im still under 100lbs but i could be more tone. -for next year... hmmm, probably *make sure i dont miss a single day in my diary* but then again i never do anyways. lol 03. Did someone close to you give birth? -melissa m. was prego but she lost it ='( -me me me... false alarm tho... thank you jesus. lol 04. Did anyone close to you die? -nope... thats probably a good thing 05. What places did you visit? -new york city -maryland -virginia -washington - (next year there will be more OH YEA!) 06. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003? -a healthy lifestyle. -a non-fighting relationship -a job -better grades 07. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? -easter: i found out bryan cheated on me... :( and we cried together all day and just held each other... he was afraid id leave him, i feared the same thing. -the day i lost my virginity: well duh of course... it was hella romantic, candles... bed on the floor, homemade romantic cd. ***he even looked in my eyes and told me if i needed him to stop he wouldn tand that he loved me*** --so adorable. 08. What was your biggest achievement(s) of the year? -biggest and best was staying with bryan and making our love last a whole year. 09. What was your biggest failure(s)? -my depression... its starting to take over my life -stress also which is ruining my health 10. Did you suffer illness or injury? -stress mainly which is causing me a lot of health problems -depression but thats a mental illness -got an uber bad cold... from people that were coming off the flu -got in a fight and cracked my wrist bone (felt pretty cool actually) 11. What was the best thing you bought? -bought... hmmm... fuck it... i cant remember buying anything. ha 12. Whose behavior merited celebration? -haha ummm bryan just because he's still there 4 me. -carrie too because she's the coolest person ever and b/c i can tell her anything and i know she's listening and can prolly relate =) 13. Whose behavior made you appalled or depressed? -bshs *all together* i mean people expect you to BE something ur not... we have eyes 4 walking not for judging what people wear and how they do their makeup 14. Where did most of your money go? -as i said b4.... i dont remember spending money... but if i did i guess it mostly went to bryan cuz i was ALWAYS trying to get him summin. 15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? -me and bryans 1 year anniversary this year -making new friends -my birthday gifts because they rocked... LOVE 2 MY FRIENDS! 16. What songs always remind you of 2003? -linkin park: numb -simple plan: perfect -AFI: girls gone grey / the leaving song part ll (just because i heard them a lot) 17. Compared to this time last year, your -more carefree -could give a shit less what others think -more fashionable *cuz im comfy* -in love -organized -listen to much much much better music *A PERFECT CIRCLE KIX ASS* thinner or fatter? -the same richer or poorer? -richer 18. What do you wish you'd done more of? -spent more time with my baby 19. What do you wish you'd done less of? -crying -focusing on the bad things 20. How will you be spending Christmas? -next year i hope to be with my baby =o) 22. Did you fall in love in 2003? -i fell in love in 2002... but it lasted thru 2003 23. How many one-night stands? -2... *sigh* raul, and mitchell... mistakes :( im sorry bryan! and there was brian kelly but we didnt get to it. yea... too much pain from the past 2 continue with this. (i didnt fuck em' just random shtuff) 24. What was your favorite TV program? -for yet another year... the simpsons =D 25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? -yes... my 'hate list' has grown 9 whole people ...interesting. 26. What was the best book you read? -i 4got the author: but 'cut' it was about a girl who was addicted to cutting and they sent her to a home... very moving. 27. What was your greatest musical discovery? -A PERFECT CIRCLE of course! -and i got into a lot of music like Simple Plan, Blink... and so on -bryan introduced me to an AFI cd... oh yea. they rock pretty hard too. (he's liked them for years its about time i start listening) -and possibly today... taking back sunday? lol we'll see 28. What did you want and get? -hmmm... i duno, posters EVERYWHERE for my room... i dont want to see any wall space... and guess what. my mommie got me a subscription to rolling stone, pretty soon ill have them posters =) - a keyboard 29. What did you want and not get? - motion lotion damnit... trip to spencers. hehehe i love spencers!!!!! 30. Favorite film of this year? - bruce almighty... me and my baby seen it together at the theater 1st then i went and bought it! woohoo go me! 31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? - 4 my celebration: went to bryans (i was sick) and we layed on his bed... played outside in a big pile of leaves... he got me a cake... bought me soup... and got me great gifts =oD it was probably one of my top 3 days of 2003 32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? -more time with my baby! 33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003? -at the beginning... typical "look at me teen" -when i gained sense... *sweatshirts, jeans, hair tied back, my vans!!!, and t-shirts with stupid sayings and shit haha...* 34. What kept you sane? -bryan -my music -my writing 35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? -none... i just wasnt big on fame... i duno really... i suppose pierre from simple plan and joel from good charlotte *because they fascinated me* -fall out boy: they sound great and arent very known yet -and anyone who sprung of from the woodwork and hit it big... b/c i never realized how hard it was until now. 36. What political issue stirred you the most? -the war of course... i dont think we did the right thing here -the capture of saddam or w/e... thats prolly gana cause us a lil hell after a while. 37. Who do you miss? -JJJJJJJJEEEEEEENNNNNNNN! 38. Who was the best new person you met? -carrie (my sister from far away lol) of course! -also maria (whose the smartest nicest person i swear... she was born with a smile... even with her and ryans drama she maintains her up-beat lifestyle) -nikki who made cooking fun!!!! lmao 39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003. -stop caring what dumbass people think about you, be who you are... trend faids fashion is overrated -my sister (prep bitch #1 made me realize all that^^... because she's so fake... she likes things just b/c they are popular and she spends 2 hours a night finding the right clothes that match perfect and everyone will like) --and for what? 40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. "im sorry i cant be perfect" -simple plan //perfect (because its true... i cant be perfect and 4 all those asshole people who expect me to be... im sorry *my life theme song... note the name of my diary*) "im tired of being what you want me to be... feeling so helpless lost under the surface... dont know what your expecting of me" -linkin park //numb (i couldnt relate to a song more when this song came out...)) "Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time Whats your rush now everyone will have his day to die Medicated drama queen picture perfect numb belligerence Narcisistic drama queen craving fame and all its decadance" -a perfect circle (this one is 4 the people who like to look at themselves in the mirror narcisisstic drama queens) "Dont waste ur touch u wont feel anything Or were u sent to save me Ive thought too much u wont find anything Worthy of redeeming" -AFI (this one... because of my baby obviously) "I’m riding on the back of this pressure Guessing that it’s better I can’t keep myself together Because all of this stress gave me something to write on The pain gave me something I could set my sights on" -Linkin Park (another life theme song... it is basically the same reasons i started writing. and got good)