i would love to spend the day with brandon... he told me to call but i never did maybe i should? i dont know how id react to his arms tho sometimes that scares me to see someones wounds that were self inflicted i can see them doing it in my head i can hear the flesh ripping does that make me a hypocrit? probably. least i can admit to what i am. but in all honesty spending the day with him would be great but i dont want to upset bryan... it just feels like brandon could use a friend right now in the biggest way. but bryan thinks he wants me... well even if he did... i love love love bryan too much i dont think i could handle me and bryan breaking up... id MURDER the cause. with no regret. he's a strong person. i give him props. but his ex was a bitch and he can do better! sooo many people like him... taisha! hehehe i think maybe ill go call him now... tho i dont know what im gana say. ill try and call bryan too, i miss him :( maybe all 3 of us could chill together! i wanna iceskate!!! *takes down the old skates from my closet* oh yea!