hey guys... i been gone for what seems 2 be 4ever and im not coming back quite yet. what happened was my comp crashed. which sent me in a mad downward spiral. me and bryan are finished. over. done. in case you didnt know why... it's because of brandon... but not to blame him... i ended it. im actually at brandons AGAIN. i love it here... its so great to just be away and with someone who i really enjoy being with, him... of course. gah... im really starting to like him and im trying not to get to attached 4 fear of falling. for fear of a lot of things. rejection is very high up on that list.... don't wanna lose his friendship either of course. i did catch myself almost kissing him which was the end of me and bryan but lately i've begun to stop caring, he doesn't seem to care either. i ate lunch with heather... she and i are hopefully gana be *better* friends now that we don't have anything to get in the way... and she didn't mind it when she knew i was starting to like (him) lol. but yea... sometime... whenever if ever. i'll change my diary. i miss you guys... and i read the comments... my fan club expands! lol u all are great! keep leaving the comments and hopefully i'll get my comp back up soon but not having it made me realize theres better things 2 do with my time... and being here... at brandons is like #1 on my list. gawd i hope he doesn't read this later and think im an idiot. well im out 4 now. loves and cuts! *specially hello 2 seth... ur girl is beautiful* *and carrie- if you leave ur address in a text msg on my phone i'll write 2 u* lol. tt4n (time 2 go spend quality time with brandon)