I JUST WANT TO SCREAM AND CRY!!!!!! NOW MY ENTRY SOMEHOW FUCKING DELETED ITSELF! GOD!!!!!!!!! this is the worst day ever! i think sum1 knows my password i swear... entries have been changed and shit... fuck u whoevers doing this. that entry was very important... well to re-cap it... i need advice bad! bryand doin shit behind my back i cant say what it is or how i knwo cuz it will only give away my source. so just tell me straight up... if u didnt trust the guy and u found something that showed he's doing shit behind ur back. and it hurts. and the shit he did in the past was just about the same and u realize he lies and has never changed what would u do? to top everything off i think he does shit to hurt me on purpose. like how he says im the greatest most perfect beautiful girl he's ever seen or touched or w/e... but then he goes off and finds other girls to mess around with? wtf? thats not love! i dont care how much in the past that was... im pretty sure shit is going on behind my back now and i cant deal with it. i want a gun damnit! i hate my life i hate him and his lies. i hate the world. bryans once a slut always a slut... and the GIRLS helped A LOT with that one! they basically ruined me and bryan and the trust shit and everything else and my life my future but w/e i just hope i can ruin a few lives b4 i die too... it must make them feel good. thats my new goal in life. ruin 5 random lives. bryans once an asshole always an asshole! once a liar always a liar. once a backstabber, forever one. and he asks whats wrong. i know there was a lot more to that entry but i 4got most of it. u get the jist. i really just need emotional suport and shit ya know. a lil advice goes a long way... thanx guys im gana leave this up 4 a while 2 get more advice... so i wont be posting 4 a bit but thats why. okie.