i said something today that made a lot of sense. specially a lot to do with my last entry *even tho its private* i said bryan being with other girls or even talking to them 2 me should be a huge risk. hell no i dont trust him. would u trust sum1 like that, that stole ur love stole ur heart and didnt care at all. i said he doesnt let me near other guys without being paranoid right but hes alowd to stay the night at his friends when girls are there? then i said 'im more to trust than you' simple as that but it hit deep in my heart and everything seeped out. the *last entry* the friends ive tossed the i love him he loves me not the lies the EASY replacements when he said he loved me so much how much of a slut the EASY replacements made him. how he was prolly a slut b4 he did that how he wont change and hasnt, he just hides it how i tried to get revenge but ended up talking about him the whole night anyways all of that. it just poured out of my eyes down my pillow and left me brain with the hurt and pain im so used to now. i shouldnt complain cuz i love him to death but the part that hurts me is he has only recently started to love me in the least *no matter what he seems 2 think* AND THAT KILLS ME 2 SAY! i wasted a lot of love and time on him. was it worth it to end up heartbroken? i know he'll say he loved me b4... but how could he love me if he could do that to me? 'thats not love. thats a trick to get laid.'- quoted from jen to sissy in the 8th grade lol well i didnt write this 2 upset him but i know he'll read it. maybe itll knock some sense into him. i went to bed at like 9 and now i cant sleep so holla at me. AIM- LiL Surfa BaBii AOL- Sk8erChick2004