bryan 'cut' himself again... i seen his wrists... not deep at all this time (thats good...) i used to do it a long long time ago :( my scars are faiding but when i tan u can see them a bit more... i stopped cuz one time it wouldnt stop bleeding and it freaked me out... i never did it to kill myself just 4 the rush 4 the decoration u know... then i got some sense... ya but i still find it a work of art and beautiful if u know what ur doing that is... i know people say its a cry 4 help and attention... and i agree but dont label me like that cuz i never showed anyone... but i would admire my work by myself a lot... why bryan does it is a bit beyond me... he doesnt show people... but its not 4 suicide..... maybe 4 thoughts there of..... but couldnt be 2 commit the deed b/c in all honesty i know this boy and i know he woulda done it already if thats what he were going for... i wonder if he woulda died that night at his dads if i wouldnt have answered my phone... it hurts 2 think about it... i love him more than myself :( i want nothing but the best of the best 4 my sweet angel... *even if it means killing every girl in the world* hahaha -an agreement we had about what we wished 4- now that would be the shit... ok well im out like whoa lol leave some kisses!