me and carly talked 4 like ever last night about nothing yet everything. me and stlpunk05 too. lol but talking to them made me depressed cuz i told them about 'why' everything is what it is between me and bryan. i was convinced id take him back today until that. then things went gr8 today... even lunch (when we usually fight) we all talked and laughed and had a gr8 time making fun of people. then the rest of the day went smooth as well... not a single fight. nothing. pure love... all the kisses the touches... they seemed to last 4 ever and time stopped for us. i was sure id take him back again. then some shit w/ a phone call happened that i dont care 2 talk about and i got a flash of him doing that to me if we got together :( and now im not sure what i want again. people look at me and ask whats wrong... ask why im dazed... fuck everyone, nobody knows cares or understands everyones so fake! at least 'carrie' i think her name is... and carly parcially understand. i think carrie-if thats her name... actually GETS IT cuz were a lot alike and she's been threw the same things. so well... me and bryan are talking. its pretty ok. i wish he wasnt so focused on what he wants and whats best 4 him... but its ok. i think i love him 2 much 2 care :) well were talking about this phone call and all and about how i dont wanna be with him cuz im scared he'll cheat SoMeThInGbAd [7:03 PM]: i just want you to know that SoMeThInGbAd [7:03 PM]: so don't come back untill you are sure i wont' cheat on you, and i am letting you know i am not going to cheat on your or lie to you SoMeThInGbAd [7:03 PM]: ...........your decission Sk8erChick2004 [7:04 PM]: then ill let my guard down and then if u do do it it'll kill me more SoMeThInGbAd [7:04 PM]: i won't do it, so go ahead let your guard down, it wouldn't matter cuz i am not going to do anything Sk8erChick2004 [7:04 PM]: ok :( SoMeThInGbAd [7:05 PM]: I WON'T SAM, DOWN BE DOWN OR SCARED. I WON'T DO ANYTHING I SWEAR SoMeThInGbAd [7:05 PM]: i won't let it and so 4 now that is that. what do u think i should do? ps. people still compliment my wings from friday and i dont feel well :/ i also read bryans diary :( its so cute how he talks about me 24/7 and how he wishs id come back :/ i love him... im so confused about what 2 do. i hate the girls that ruined us. i hate them with passion and wait 4 them 2 rot.