Hey Guys... still no modem im lazy! hehehe anyways this past week has been crazy. 1st of all bryan said he didnt want to come back to me =( it made me cry so hard... then i met a guy named josh at a gas station. we clicked right away and i ended up slippin my # to him. he calls and we chat about random things now mostly about bryan since he knows him too i tell him about how much i love bryan, even tho thats a big no- in moving on... but i dont want to move on i just wanna be friends i suppose. but then something changed BIG TIME. bryan told me he loved me and he had a suprise to give me the next day. in gym he asked me back out... that was my suprise. it was the most adorable thing ever!!! he came over with perry and they got me mest up and all fun fun... sorta my 1st time being high but not really if you count the other lil thingie -tho i felt nothing that time- but yea... perry said we HAVE to be friends and all now, so each time we are near each other he puts out his hand or waves. it reminds me of last year. me and bryan couldnt fuq cuz of my dot... yep no baby! so i gave him some good head... lmao. then he held me. unfortunatly (if i spelt that right lol) he cant come over this weekend cuz he's going to his daddies. i am however going to go see the passions of christ movie... so anyways back to that night: after that guido came and picked them up. and i went straight to sleep. guido came over another night too... this has been an eventful week actually. if he's friends with girls im friends with guys its cool. this time it wont get mest!!! i just want us to be happy again. and im NOT going to stop him from *smokin* as long as he includes me sometimes and doesnt do it with other girls alone. hahahaha well baby i loooove you. (if u read this) muah.