My experience of being able to stay in willmar for longer then an hour was actually a time i could forget about everything here... and matt. Now....I dont feel like writing. nor do i feel like talking. I dont feel like doing much anymore. i daydream and listen to my music which is the only thing that comforts me right now. Im looking at All Or Nothing.

I have been hurt by my family over and over again mostly this month. my mom recently just talked to me today without being mad? why? because of course anything I say to my dad gets twisted around and goes to sam which of COURSE she has to tell my mom and tell her pretty much everything else I have ever shared with her. WHILE she is telling matt that she hates when im at dads? I dont even talk to her that much cause i already know that im just going to be treated like shit anyways right. because lindsey does drugs and drinks all the time when im there. great think that i dont give a shit anymore. everyone should back out of my life and leave me be, i dont need anybody in my business anymore because they take it all in and chew on it then spit it back onto me.

and greeeeattt matt is finally mad because of the way i treat him? ha thats funny because i do treat you like shit I treat EVERYONE like shit. because I dont give a flying fuck at this point.

you all will get what you deserve