So i am sitting here and sitying with my mom well laying next to her. I love her and i know i do because i will always help her and anyone who is close to me and to her. My grandfather Carol died yesterday.... months after I had heard his thoughts not so much cry.. more thoughts on having people here for him and for us and honestly right now feels like everything. We need to stay together and i do not see that changing for anyone as long as i am still awake and breathing. Im not ashamed to say i fell apart and maybe yet to stay i am secretly falling apart. 26 now. Life isnt rebuilding itself for my body. Its there if i want to build my life and my body.... expand? I should keep bear hugs.. genuinely bear hug the good people that need it. I dont know what im really saying.