i was having such a good luckky and happy day. I woke up thinking abou butts, perverted, but good. So im having a great day, pizza, no hw, just grand. plus team pictures to look forward to. I barely talked to Lindsay at all tho. Then im on the way to 5th period right? i see Lindsay holding hands with Bryan. Ttoally ruined my day, i knw it was gonan be hard to wait, but holy crap that half killed me. If i had somethign hard i would have beet down a car to rubble i swear to God. We had pizza 5th, but i was still way unhappy. So damn sad/mad. AAHH!!! An whover left that message earlier, DO U REALLY THINK I WANTED TO KNOW THAT BRYAN KISSED HER AFTER 5TH GOD DAMN IT!!! MOTHER FUCKER I FEEL SO DAMN GOOD NOW. hORRIBLE TO AMAZINGLY BAD DAY. DAMN IT. I know i have no right to be mad either, but im crazy about her. like no one else. thio is gonna sound really lame and pppl r gonan be all yah right, buit i like her more than any other girl i can think off ever. I dont know what t do im so confused, all class im thinking abouit her, cept in first which im thinking about things happening to Bryan, train accident, for example, cuz hes in my class. I wanna be with her so bad. ............. i dont know what else to write, i got tto hold the ball for pictures. me and erin messed up our hair all crazy for it. We are true polo players. tomorrow we r gonn scrimmage the girl, im so no gonan be able to focus. Lindsay as goalie, im just gonan look retarded, shots of the cage, dropping the ball, set destroying me. no idea what to do. ok bye.