I went for a run. Not too far, 2 miles about with Hannah, so it was annoying, cute little dog. Then the same loop by myself a little faster. My new running shoes are a dreeeaammm. I love them. Oct. 20. Go to the Alpine. Betrayed's second to last show. MY CAR IS GONE. It's at a tranny shop, but they suck. So I'm worried about my baby. altough Georgia and Keving did let me drive their spare car a few times. I love it, but of course my mom thought it was innapropriate to drive that car. She seems to be so against my shit sometimes. It drives me sooo crazy. THEN DEANDRA TALKING SHIT?!?!? Oh my, last person I would have expected. It pissed me off so bad, if she would have said it to me, I would have just been upset, but she had to post it all as a bulletin on Myspace. What if our mother would have seen? We'd be sunk. Like bad. So I was at Jordan's house chillin, watcing IT with her mom and dad, well her dad thought it was gay so he went upstairs, and Georgia always falls asleep, but it wasn't about the movie. We lay together a lot, but that time was special. She was next to me, and was just inside my arms. I was just wrapped around her and it felt sooo good. I can't even describe it. It was just a feeling of instead of being protected, I was protecting someone, but it wasn't just that, it was sooo happy, the feeling. It was a "I wanna lay here forever" feeling. A "wanna just go to sleep and wake up old and married?" The "I want to be grownup so I can marry you" feeling. Oh goodness it was amazing. Then I went to sleep at my house, all alone, and woke up unsatisfied, thinking, "gay." XXX